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lanternslightI'm not sure what to say about it.
She's alive again.
I'm alive again.
She has a ring again. The last time she had a ring, we were living together. And I was very much in love with her.
What changed? Certainly, Parallax's influence can't be discounted, but nor can it be the scapegoat I lay everything on. Parallax twisted my view; he didn't control me like a puppet on a string, not until later.
Carol is married now. She's not even part of the equation. Why am I even thinking of Carol? The rope showed me it's not fair to compare Arisia to Carol; they have been my two greatest loves, but both have been very different. And the man I was around each one was different, too.
I know I need to talk to her. At least to check on her.
She's getting set up at Warriors... I wish I could help her out.
I wish I could talk to her. Like we used to talk.
I need to talk to her, though. She deserves more than what I've given her so far.
To Warriors it is, then.
She's alive again.
I'm alive again.
She has a ring again. The last time she had a ring, we were living together. And I was very much in love with her.
What changed? Certainly, Parallax's influence can't be discounted, but nor can it be the scapegoat I lay everything on. Parallax twisted my view; he didn't control me like a puppet on a string, not until later.
Carol is married now. She's not even part of the equation. Why am I even thinking of Carol? The rope showed me it's not fair to compare Arisia to Carol; they have been my two greatest loves, but both have been very different. And the man I was around each one was different, too.
I know I need to talk to her. At least to check on her.
She's getting set up at Warriors... I wish I could help her out.
I wish I could talk to her. Like we used to talk.
I need to talk to her, though. She deserves more than what I've given her so far.
To Warriors it is, then.
